June have come to an end, but actually i kinda miss June alot instead of looking forward to July.

Reason being because you were still around with me during June.

July was a complete new month without you here with me...

Well, hopefully all those starting school tomorrow will have a great start :)

One more week of holidays and i will be back to school facing all the stressful assignments.

I'm not looking forward to school and i am actually looking forward for graduation..

1 year and 6 months more... i just got to bear with it.

I'm just not the type that likes studying or should i basically say...

I'm more interested in studying something that i like instead of something i've no choice but to.

I like the course i'm studying now but it's just that.. that is not my main interest, it's just relevant.

I just got to bear with it and hopefully i can graduate with good grades and get closer to the path i want.

Although i'm taking the long route to Polytechnic but still, i guess... this might bring me further.

I don't like it but for my future.... just got to tolerate it.

- Bestfriend -

Hmm.

I never thought that i would have met someone in my life that i can actually rely on & trust someone.

I thought i would never have met someone like that throughout my life.

Maybe he just doesn't know how important he is to me.

He thinks that i'm just joking with him, he thinks that i'm saying it for fun.

But i mean what i say, HE IS IMPORTANT TO ME.

Maybe i'm not that important to you as compared to the beginning when this friendship started.

Although this friendship wasn't long as compared to others

But i don't know what bring us close and making me trust you without any second thoughts.

You taught me what's right and what's wrong.

You took great care of me whenever i'm not feeling well and whenever i'm down.

Always there for me 24/7 when i'm facing tough times....

I remember we said that we will study hard together and progress on to poly.

I also remember you saying that you would never leave or change no matter what happens.

But right now, you're gone.

You left me here feeling lost, having a hard time of my life trying to act like everything is fine.

Trying not to be bothered and trying to ignore you, it really does hurt alot.

Right now, i can't trust anyone anymore... because whoever says they will stay, always leaves.

I have no one to turn to when i'm feeling low, i have no one at all.

I really thought that this friendship would last, i thought you were being serious.

I was actually silly enough to think that i actually mattered to you.

And i was silly enough to actually be excited to the next meetups we have plan & not forgetting...

Taking our first Polaroid together and lastly, planning our USS trip.

It somehow just seems like a dream... and when you wake up, you realize everything isn't real.

I wish i can just go back to sleep tonight and wake up knowing that everything that happen was just a nightmare and it is now over, everything is back to normal but actually, it's the truth that you're gone.

I just can't face the fact that i lose someone... important.

Someone i thought i can trust and rely on for the rest of my time.

And someone i thought will be there for me and not leaving no matter what happens.

I tried my best, in every way to salvage this friendship... i tried.

But there's just nothing i can do to hold you back... nothing.

I'm feeling helpless, i'm feeling miserable and i'm feeling lost.

But it's alright, as long as you are happy.... i will be happy for you.

Remember that no matter what happens next time, just smile and things will be fine.

Stay strong fatty :')

I know things will never be the same anymore but just wanna let you know that i will never forget a single thing that has happen throughout this 2 months. All the happy times we've been through and of course, all the tough times we've been through. You still owe me Ben&Jerry, a outing to Images of Singapore and RollerBlading session. I will put that on a record and IF everything is back to normal... then this plans will continue but for now, take care fatty x. :)

' Sometimes you just can't decide on who stays and who leave, everything is fated. '

I really wonder why do people change without having a thought for our feelings.

It's like we are humans and we do feel the pain when they just change out of sudden.

Changes i mean are like ' Ignoring, less attention, acting differenly and so on... '

The pain is unbearable and i really do not know how to handle it.

I'm not those kind that can just let go of this pain so easily....

I hide all this pain that i have and accumulate it to the point that i couldn't take it anymore...

And eventually, breakdown.

I don't know what else i can do but cry because that's the only thing i can do to make myself feel better.

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June have come to an end, but actually i kinda miss June alot instead of looking forward to July.

Reason being because you were still around with me during June.

July was a complete new month without you here with me...

Well, hopefully all those starting school tomorrow will have a great start :)

One more week of holidays and i will be back to school facing all the stressful assignments.

I'm not looking forward to school and i am actually looking forward for graduation..

1 year and 6 months more... i just got to bear with it.

I'm just not the type that likes studying or should i basically say...

I'm more interested in studying something that i like instead of something i've no choice but to.

I like the course i'm studying now but it's just that.. that is not my main interest, it's just relevant.

I just got to bear with it and hopefully i can graduate with good grades and get closer to the path i want.

Although i'm taking the long route to Polytechnic but still, i guess... this might bring me further.

I don't like it but for my future.... just got to tolerate it.

- Bestfriend -

Hmm.

I never thought that i would have met someone in my life that i can actually rely on & trust someone.

I thought i would never have met someone like that throughout my life.

Maybe he just doesn't know how important he is to me.

He thinks that i'm just joking with him, he thinks that i'm saying it for fun.

But i mean what i say, HE IS IMPORTANT TO ME.

Maybe i'm not that important to you as compared to the beginning when this friendship started.

Although this friendship wasn't long as compared to others

But i don't know what bring us close and making me trust you without any second thoughts.

You taught me what's right and what's wrong.

You took great care of me whenever i'm not feeling well and whenever i'm down.

Always there for me 24/7 when i'm facing tough times....

I remember we said that we will study hard together and progress on to poly.

I also remember you saying that you would never leave or change no matter what happens.

But right now, you're gone.

You left me here feeling lost, having a hard time of my life trying to act like everything is fine.

Trying not to be bothered and trying to ignore you, it really does hurt alot.

Right now, i can't trust anyone anymore... because whoever says they will stay, always leaves.

I have no one to turn to when i'm feeling low, i have no one at all.

I really thought that this friendship would last, i thought you were being serious.

I was actually silly enough to think that i actually mattered to you.

And i was silly enough to actually be excited to the next meetups we have plan & not forgetting...

Taking our first Polaroid together and lastly, planning our USS trip.

It somehow just seems like a dream... and when you wake up, you realize everything isn't real.

I wish i can just go back to sleep tonight and wake up knowing that everything that happen was just a nightmare and it is now over, everything is back to normal but actually, it's the truth that you're gone.

I just can't face the fact that i lose someone... important.

Someone i thought i can trust and rely on for the rest of my time.

And someone i thought will be there for me and not leaving no matter what happens.

I tried my best, in every way to salvage this friendship... i tried.

But there's just nothing i can do to hold you back... nothing.

I'm feeling helpless, i'm feeling miserable and i'm feeling lost.

But it's alright, as long as you are happy.... i will be happy for you.

Remember that no matter what happens next time, just smile and things will be fine.

Stay strong fatty :')

I know things will never be the same anymore but just wanna let you know that i will never forget a single thing that has happen throughout this 2 months. All the happy times we've been through and of course, all the tough times we've been through. You still owe me Ben&Jerry, a outing to Images of Singapore and RollerBlading session. I will put that on a record and IF everything is back to normal... then this plans will continue but for now, take care fatty x. :)

' Sometimes you just can't decide on who stays and who leave, everything is fated. '

I really wonder why do people change without having a thought for our feelings.

It's like we are humans and we do feel the pain when they just change out of sudden.

Changes i mean are like ' Ignoring, less attention, acting differenly and so on... '

The pain is unbearable and i really do not know how to handle it.

I'm not those kind that can just let go of this pain so easily....

I hide all this pain that i have and accumulate it to the point that i couldn't take it anymore...

And eventually, breakdown.

I don't know what else i can do but cry because that's the only thing i can do to make myself feel better.

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